Saturday, July 15, 2017

Thoughts About Abortion - updated

Thoughts About Abortion 

    I had someone say to me, in an email, something that struck my heart. They said that I could never wash my hands of what "Planned Parenthood" has done and asked me to make a donation. I wasn't for sure if they were talking to me, but it made me feel as though "Planned Parenthood" had used something I had written to help them raise money for abortion. I have said from the get go, that I would not support abortion nor did I want anything of mine to help them raise money for it. 
   I've thought about this many times and asked myself, "Will God be able to wash his hands of what others do if they misuse His Word?" ( the bible). God will not answer for any of what we do, we will be held accountable for how we misuse God's Word. The same with anything I have written. If others have misused anything that I have written, if they tried to change it into something ugly. (evil,dirty,) That's not my fault, that's injury against me and also to God. 

Susan Y Nikitenko 
July 15th, 2017

Other Thoughts
I've gone through some interesting things, things I've never encountered in my entire life.  This may sound like a Halloween story because it was something that
happened, believe it or not, just before Halloween.  I was painting the chicken coop bright red and also the rocking chair which I was restoring.  I was using a white sheet that had already been slightly paint stained.  I was cleaning up, but the sheet I left laying to dry.  I was thinking if someone saw this they might think it was blood.  I looked at my hands and I looked at the sheet and a feeling of horror
went through my heart. I wept as I looked at the red on my hands.  A strong feeling of guilt rushed through me like I've never felt and I began to cry.   As tears ran down my face, I shook , as I prayed. "Dear God, do I have blood on my hands"? I repeated it over and over in my tears.  I was alone, and no one could understand.    I was
blaming myself for many things.  I was heartbroken but could not seem to speak of it. 
Many things whether real or imagined, but either way they were very upsetting.
I was blaming myself for some things that had come to pass.  This was brought about because of many things I have held inside my heart for a very long time.  

I bundled up the red stained sheet and put it inside an old fashioned pot setting
outside on our shed porch and put a lid on it.  I was able to wash all the red off my hands.
I could not keep blaming myself for something other people caused.

Maybe God was telling me to stop blaming myself because that's what I did.  I stopped blaming myself.  Maybe God was restoring something broken in me.

Susan Y Nikitenko 
July 15th, 2017

Ephesians 1:4

According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: